I don’t often share these because I still struggle so much to look at the before picture, but I’ve come a long way so far, and I felt the need to show you guys just how far that is.
The photo on the left is an older photo, but it’s representative of my weight when I started.
Being a super skinny 6’3” guy since my teens was so fucking difficult - calling people fat was seen as offensive, but ‘rake’, ‘lanky’ or ‘beanpole’ were all apparently fine.
I dealt with a lot of crap from people because of this, and what was worse was people following up their comments with ‘you’re lucky’ - yeah, real lucky to not be able to put on a single pound. Thanks.
Even my family were the same, if not worse.
Being a tall extra skinny guy has a serious social stigma that is so often overlooked because of the focus on other weight issues, and it is a lonely fucking experience, let me tell you.
My weight fluctuated a bit over the years, but that fluctuation was within the parameters of 68kgs and 74kgs (149lbs and 163lbs). That weight on a 6’3” frame is like loose clothes on a hanger - just look at the left photo again for that metaphor.
One day I just decided that enough was enough. Now I’d be lying if I said the social benefits weren’t a big contributor in my decision to go all out on deciding to bulk up, and that is a sad commentary of society in and of itself, but I had to prove to myself that I could get fitter and healthier.
I was hovering around 74kgs (left pic) when I decided to start. I’d worked in a gym for a while and had qualified as a trainer, so I had the knowledge of what to do, but until this point, I had lacked the drive. I’d dare to say I fought with weight-induced apathy a lot.
I bought some mass gainer, and began to eat anything and everything around me. I would eat until I was full up, and then eat some more. I felt sick a lot of the time from being so full, but I had to do this.
Post after post of fitspo on here inspired me to keep going. In just 3 short months I went from 74kgs to 90kgs!
I don’t do things by the measure, and I went all in. This was no doubt unhealthy at times, but I had tunnel vision and only my end goal in sight.
Well, here I am now on the right. 97kgs of Jack. Yeah, I’m not massive, it’s a work in progress, and sometimes I still feel like the 74kg guy on the left. Having that body image burned into my brain with the accompanying insults is difficult to shake off, but i’m doing pretty well, I think.
I’m infinitely more confident in my appearance, and I’m getting to the point where I need to cut some body fat away - a psychological hurdle for another day - but for now, this is my transformation so far, and I couldn’t be happier with the results.
Thank all of you for the inspiration, you probably don’t realise what a little reblog of a post you think is cool can do, but for me, it changed my life.
Starting Weight: 74kgs
Current Weight: 97kgs
Goal Weight: I don’t care anymore - as long as I feel good.